How to write a note to your girlfriend that you are leaving her

I know! Leaving a note is the cowards way out of a relationship, but I never said I was the hero type, so this is the way it's going to be. I'll write the note, pack up all the stuff I need for a week and be gone before she gets back from work. I can already stay at Steve's place just like I did the last time we had a row. But this time I'm not coming back. I can pick up the rest of my stuff later.

The blank sheet of white paper with faint blue lines looked back up at me and refused to aid me in my difficult process. So, it's all down to me. Now, where to start.

Dear Miche.....

No that's not right. She is clearly not that dear to me now or I wouldn't be writing this note.

Michelle,

No, that sounds a bit blunt, a bit cold. I know this is a bit cold and if I wanted warmer I would have waited till she got home and broke it gently.

M.

After what we said last night I think it's best that....

No if I say that, it will open up all old wounds. I just want to stop feeling guilty. Start something new.

I sat pondering the note....

….I looked at my watch, shit I've wasted too much time she will be home in 20 minutes. I'd snuck off from work and shot home. Enough time to pen the goodbye note and get out of there. That time had been squandered by me, the pen and unhelpful paper. I had to act fast. I ran into the bedroom, grabbed the case from the top of the wardrobe. Chucked it on the bed and flipped open the lid. Slid open the cabinet drawers and grabbed handfuls of pants, socks and t-shirts. Next pulling random sets of hangers with trousers, shirts and jackets on from the wardrobe.

I skipped quickly into the bathroom and picked out my tooth brush, deodorant and shaving kit. In the toiletry bag that Michelle brought for last summers trip. Maldives. Swinging back into the the bedroom and tossing it in to the nearly full case. I opened the drawer on the bedside unit on my side and emptied the contents into the case. Shut the lid and whipped the zip round. Done!

I walked back to the lounge trying to calm myself back down to try compose the note again. As I picked up the pen and sat at the table I notice that the red light was flashing on the answer machine. I got up and pressed the play button.

Beep

Sorry Jason I know this is a bit shit, but I'm leaving you... well left actually. I'm not coming home. I did want to tell you myself but I a bit of a coward really. I going to stay with …....

I didn't hear the rest.

I sat back in the chair.

Shit! She's left me.